Can You Miss Someone You've Never Met?

 


  Last night I read a fellow adopting family's post on their progress. They had just sent more papers to their son's country for review. "One step closer", she said. And as I was lying in my bed, this line repeated over and over in my head. "One step closer..." I have known from the beginning that adoptions take a long time and that there are so very many steps before I should start getting my hopes up, so to speak, but I can't help the overwhelming feeling of missing this child I know so little about.

  I have only seen a couple of pictures and read a brief bio about her and yet I feel as if she was somehow my child and she has been taken from me. Kept far away with no contact and no definite plans of ever being with her again.

  When we first discussed the possibility of adopting her I kept saying that if it was meant to happen, it will happen. Things will work out somehow. And although I truly believed this in my heart I have had a hard time keeping positive as the daunting piles of paperwork and ridiculous amount of fees keep coming. We knew that we would have to depend greatly on fundraising and grants to meet these goals but before we can start applying for grants we must have completed several costly steps first.

  We will persist, though, because a part of my heart is halfway across the world waiting for her forever home. My only hope is that my gut feeling can stay strong enough to win those little doubts that sneak up and try to take over.